Tuesday, May 31, 2011


Tuesday, May 24, 2011


"Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections.”

Someone recently told me that they were trying to ‘find happiness’. And it left me wondering, if happiness was even something we could discover. Is happiness something created by particular circumstances, conditions, or environments? Well, the Universe opened up a lot of opportunities for me to explore this idea. I wrote this over at so wabi sabi a couple of days later. Basically, it seemed like everything was telling me I could choose happiness but it might be easier to do with my eyes closed. Two days later, I visited a zendo and our reading that night was from a book called “Ending the Pursuit of Happiness”. The premise of this book is that we should just stop trying to be happy and embrace what is in all its imperfection. To do otherwise creates unneeded suffering. And today I’m feeling that the wisest council might just be found in embracing life for all it is and adopting one of these mantra…. “don’t worry, be happy” or "don't worry, just be".

Learning to find the positive in even the most trying times is something I have been striving for for several years now. Life is not perfect. WE are not perfect, yet so much of our world and society tells us that we should try to be perfect and if we do not fit nicely into the little box then we had better try harder to mold ourselves into something other than our beautifully imperfect selves. Each and everyday I encounter imperfections. That's life. However, it is up to me to decide what I will choose to see in those imperfections. I could choose to see road blocks, irritations, and major life disasters OR, I could choose to look for the positivity that surrounds each and everyone of us wherever we go. I can choose to see the beautiful blue skies, the dribbling raindrops down my window, the lovely green life sprouting underfoot, my amazing children, and the ability to take a deep breathe and declare, It's good to be alive! It is still the same life, with the same imperfections, but we are blessed with the freedom to love it for every bit life is right now.


Tuesday, May 17, 2011


"If you can find a path with no obstacles, it probably doesn't lead anywhere."

 ~Frank A. Clark

When I look at this body of mine, I see scars acquired from years of bicycle racing, stretch marks, wrinkles, calluses on my feet, and a growing number of gray hairs. I have often joked that if I die under suspicious circumstances, the autopsy report will read something like... “this woman led a very hard life”. I have not exactly lived life on the sidelines. When I am thriving, feeling most fulfilled, and in alignment with my Divine Purpose, I am usually dreaming up some new adventure, working hard towards a goal, or pushing my limits in some way.

It has taken me years to realize that challenges experienced along the way are not meant to deter me from living life. They are not even necessarily a 'sign' that I am not on the right path.  But sometimes a real difficult challenge is the only thing that will push me towards my Divine potential.  Without being conscious of what is happening, these obstacles cause vibrational shifts or alignments that allow me to remember who I really am and help me evolve into the being I am destined to be.  Namaste~


Monday, May 9, 2011

a mother is born

"The moment a child is born, the mother is also born. She never existed before. The woman existed, but the mother, never. A mother is something absolutely new."


Mother's Day was initiated in the United States after the American Civil War when mothers from the North and South stood united for peace.  This mother's day, I am especially grateful for and inspired by the mothers past, present, and future who have, are, and will stand for peace for our children's sake and for the sake of all humanity.  If not us, who?

Let peace begin on Earth and let it begin with us mothers...

My Mother's Day started in a frazzle yesterday. There was an unconsolable little boy and tears shed by another. It was enough chaos to send me to sit alone in a quiet part of the house and shed a few tears of myself out of the sheer feeling of being overwhelmed. Every year I think about how much Mother's Day seems like a joke to me. It isn't some magical day where mothers get some big break from being a mom. Mothering never stops. Even after my children are all grown up, I will still be a mother each and every day. I will always worry and stress; love and care for them. Being a mother to me is all about loving the everyday chaos as much as I can in the moment, because once it's gone I know I'll miss it dearly.

Monday, May 2, 2011


"Chaos in the world brings uneasiness, but it also allows the opportunity for creativity and growth.”
~Tom Barrett


We dive into the darkness, into chaos, to bring healing and light. When we make that dive, it can feel like our world is ripping apart. But it is only through engaging the darkness that we can create and heal. We have to be daring enough to take the plunge, and sometimes it might even feel like we have not been given a choice. But we have. We are all here right now because we made the choice to be. Our circumstances may seem ominous. The world may seem ominous. But we have a choice about how we look at and how we feel about it. We can be in our heads and full of fear. Or we can stay in hearts and realize that the darkness we face today only yields more light in our lives and in the world.

So many things to me seem extremely chaotic right now. Things are changing and shifting, and I am learning the intense need to let go. To let go of my expectations, of what I want, or feel I need, of everything. The power of letting things unravel in their own time is hard. Having complete trust that in the end everything worksout is hard. Stopping whatever and everything I am doing to just be...is hard. But these are things that my heart tells me are necessary to live life to the fullest. Chaos makes me uncomfortable at first, sometimes even angry, but by taking the time to work through it I learn new things, about myself, my family, and the world. It gives me the chance to be creative in what I see as my reality. It's hard work paying attention, but it's also good work...deep work, that has the power to heal deeply and allow us to grow into who we came here to be.

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