I thought I would share with you a little about what life is like on a peace walk. We are currently in Arizona in the middle of a desert. Yesterday it rained all day, and we had leaks all over the rv. Our walking teams went out to walk today only to find that the ‘roads’ they were supposed to walk on were completely washed out. Dinner was delayed by undercooked garbanzo beans. A cup of tea was spilled on one of our elder’s computer when the table collapsed in the rv. The youngest member of our group (my son) peed in the middle of the rv because he was too involved in pretending to be a turtle to stop to go. Then, the oldest member of our group (who has alzheimers) peed through her depends while sitting in her wheelchair.
There is no environment that allows us to become peace. It is an attitude, an approach, a state of mind. It is choices. It is choosing not to feel guilty. It is choosing not to blame. It is choosing to have faith in Wisdom. It is choosing to face the hard stuff straight up and expose it all. It is choosing to not be rigid. It is choosing to laugh, to smile, and maybe even scream. It is choosing to breath. It is choosing to release. In the midst of all the chaos…it is remembering to love.
This weekend I was in a yoga class at a new studio. I guess there were new tenants moving in upstairs. Throughout my whole practice there was a child running back and forth down the hall, I heard the sounds of a bath being filled up, and things were being moved around. Things like this used to bother me, but now, as a mom to four, it is in these moments where I am called to find that piece of me that holds the peace. It is hard sometimes, but I know that once I am able to sit clearly amidst the everyday chaos, my heart will be shining happy golden rays of sunshine.