"I Need to enjoy all the gifts that God gave me today. Grace cannot be saved and put away for later. There is no bank where you can deposit favors you’ve received, to use them according to our will. If I do not enjoy these blessings now, I will lose them forever."
This time of year, I am very aware of the transient nature of blessings. It is so easy to take the yellow forsythia for granted when you see it blooming everywhere, but in another week or so it will give way to a cascade of different colored blooms. And we will not see her graceful arching stems bursting ‘full of sunshine’ until another year. And even then it will never be exactly the same as it was this year.
My children have been wonderful at teaching me to appreciate the gifts of the moment. I am painfully aware of how quickly milestones are checked off and candles are added to specially chosen cakes. The way my son pronounces words, the moments and ways spent cuddling, and even his smile never cease to evolve. Even though I would have been tempted to press pause a time or two or even rewind if it were an option, I know the blessing is right here, right now.
In the busyness of life, it is so, so easy for me to let the moments slip by without noticing and acknowledging the miracles, the beauty, the love and light that never cease. And when the road gets steep or it seems like my life is spinning out of control, I can easily get distracted by my fear. But I am given sufficient Grace for every moment, even the crazy out of control moments. It is up to me to capture it, savor it, and to give thanks for it.
This is such a powerful message to me on how important it is to remain in the moment; to live each step consciously. This can be so trying in the fast paced world we live in. Very often I get down on myself as to why I allow myself to get distracted from the true gifts I have right in front of me. When I feel this way, I remind myself that this is a path we are all on. I am not alone. If I had the ability to remain 100% in the moment at all times, I would most likely be enlightened, and no longer need the bodily form I have in this life. For now, however, I am human.
Whenever I feel that I have fallen out of step within the present moment, I use these times as a reminder to stop, look around, and “open my eyes” to all the blessings that surround me. Even amidst the chaos of everyday life, even in the thick of the worst of the worst, there is so much to be grateful for. It is easy to relish the the wonderful moments and it is in the chaos that I feel the most challenge to embrace the blessings. It is taking that opportunity to see things in a new way that will enable us to truly live our lives to the full potential available to us. Instead of willing the "bad" moments to go away, I choose to see them as having an important place in my evolution toward a more conscious being.